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a bit tired …
a bit overwhelmed …
a bit excited …
a bit grateful …
a bit frustrated
a bit grieved …
a lot blessed

It’s Saturday night. I’m exhausted. This day started around 6:45 … the kids never sleep in on Saturdays. You can’t drag them out of bed on a school day, but the one, single day of the week I could sleep in, they are always up early. ALWAYS.

I had a great father/son date with Jon Michael, my oldest (he’s 7). We went to “Sweet Mamas” for breakfast and then he accompanied me to our new church facility where he was a great helper. We built table carts .. you know, those big metal dollies you can load folding tables up on and push around? He’s only 7, but he can run a socket, allen wrench, and knows the different sizes of bolts, washers, and nuts. Thanks, kiddo.

I’m overwhelmed. We have two more Sundays until we make the huge transition to our new church facility. I’ve never been involved in something this huge – this big – this massive. Every square foot of this 74,000 ft2 facility is about to bust with ministry. All of the music/audio/lighting/tech stuff comes together this coming week – including our first sound checks and rehearsals. Yet at the same time, I have this stuff going on with Andrew, our youngest son. I’ve had multiple shipments of products from vendors for my e-biz this week, many of which are still packed in boxes and not even listed for sale. I think I’m 2-3 days behind on shipping orders.

I’m excited … this new church building is going to be awesome. I’m also excited because I can feel the energy, excitement, vision, and I know that this island and region will be turned upside down.

I’m grateful … Joy’s upstairs getting the kids to bed. They are laughing, giggling. We had prayers together. We had a wonderful meal. I have a great church, a great job, beautiful kids, and a gorgeous wife who loves me. We live in a nice house on a resort island. Who could ask for more?

I’m frustrated … I love blogging, and keeping up with my friends in blogworld – but I just cannot keep up. Over 250+ unread blogs. I’ve not even been able to track the Compassion Blogs … from all my blog friends who are out in Uganda with Compassion International. Joy and I are SO READY to sponsor a child.

I’m grieved … not a week goes by, it seems, that I don’t hear reports of people who have walked with God for years .. decades, and I hear the stories of how they’ve stumbled in terrible ways. Sin you wouldn’t imagine. Scenarios that astound you. I’ve been saying over the last few years that “nothing surprises me” anymore. I wish it weren’t that way. Satan is a horrific foe … and I’ve seen how he’s ravaged the lives of those I’ve known for years, and it only makes me work out my own salvation with “fear and trembling”. But by the grace of God, it could be me.

I’m a lot blessed. God loves me, in spite of myself. When I’m tired, when I’m weak. When I’m excited, when I’m grieved. Regardless, God’s blessings overtake me.

I’m forever grateful.  Are you?

For the Kingdom,
Fred